Couldn’t make it to the deckers.
Couldn’t make it to the deckers.
Trouble with clones is my favourite thing (right now).
I’m doin it.
lets draw part of people.
Anonymous asked: try read fanfics in other language ^__^
I’m assuming you’re saying you can’t speak English well and have to read them? Yeah that would suck. If anything is in Spanish I can’t understand, I make Lyze interpret. If he can’t get it he asks his mom.
Tried to find fanfics to read; Didn’t like any
Tried to work on my own again; got mad because I don’t know what to do with it.
Wow seriously why am I flipping out so hard I’ve got work to do.
/co/ is posting these and it actually helps.
YOU APOLOGIZED BUT YOUR APOLOGY MAKES ME FEEL BAD BECAUSE YOU FEEL BAD. SO YOU MUST BE TRYING TO MAKE ME FEEL BAD SO YOU ARE STILL A BAD PERSON.
I can’t even go outside to buy a coke to make me feel better because it’s pouring down rain.
This weekend I did a stupid and terrible thing. For a full explanation, all you have to do is search for “gunnerkrigg” right here on Tumblr to see that I essentially threw away 8 years or so of work by being an idiot on Twitter. It’s better to leave the description of events to external sources, with all the hyperbole necessary to illustrate what an ass I was, because I can offer no excuse for what I did or try to reason my way out of it. Of course I cannot link to them as that was part of the problem. All I can do is apologise, which I did.
I accept that an apology is sometimes not enough, and I will not be forgiven for my mistake by a lot of people. The people I hurt have not been offered forgiveness or understanding in this world, so I should not be treated differently. Their life experiences have forced them to identify and remove anything that hurts them and, while it was certainly not my intention, I did hurt them. Life is too short, and yet so vast that nobody should tolerate that which causes them pain. My actions have caused me to be removed from those people’s lives, and that can never be undone.
That said, yesterday was pretty low for me. I felt I had two choices; continue with my life, or fucking kill myself. As someone who was recently diagnosed with severe depression, the latter was an uncomfortably closer option than it has been since I decided to seek help. However, while it might disappoint some people, I decided that a broken neck would make it difficult to work on my comic and this morning I realised I still have work to do.
As my job and livelihood relies solely on my readers, the very real scenario now is that I might not be able to continue this line of work for as long as I’d have liked. But until I am unable to ensure it, the comic will update as normal.
Man. You don’t know me and I only occasionally take an archive binge to catch up on your comic but I was genuinely worried when you didn’t post anything yesterday.
I’ve seen this happen so many times. It’s not even your comments or the original offended people’s comments. It’s the people who heard about it from a friend through tinted glasses that are making this worse. The people in the Gunnerkrigg tag who post how the never read the comic but now they never will.
You assholes should be ashamed of yourselves. We are all people and we make mistakes and you think you are the only people with anxiety and depression. Do you think Phillip Seymore Hoffman, Heath Ledger, Chris Farley and the tons of others that medicated themselves to death were perfectly normal people because they were famous and/or rich (White, able-bodied, cis, straight)?
Maybe I’m just really angry because this is what I worry about in life and people think I’m ridiculous. Either you get your career ruined or you get your life ruined and that’s apparently ok as long as they feel righteous.
Just think of it this way uh.. Tom? You did do great you seem like a great person. That’s why this blew out of hand.
This disjointed rambling brought to you by someone Secondhand depressed over this and things that could be in their future but probably never will be.